Srambled Diary

Bhag bhag Bos D k

you know DK was the 1st name I used way back

9 years ago

As a Dummy

always??

No way the word DK has sored high

the day was shining as the internet connection was back into operation

plus I had my room in a working state finally , it after all had to host a cinema hall , a rest room and offcourse a bed room .

It was perfectly in dis order , a thing which I cherish a lot always .

So , yes I had it figured out ,

Downloaded source code of Google OS
had my C and java working on windows 7 pro x64

used a virtual DOS editor

and also on my way struggling with Ubuntu......


And the flash is back again
Taking tuts on flash before getting into maya

Maya is fascinating
A lovely prodigy to spend time around
and gaining Bucks out of it

wonderful animations whcich are hard to perceive but when they are they are great to see
truely fascinating
I can go for hours looking onto those creations


Target :

A new game design

____> simple yet addictive
>>>>> a teenager like

back to //// bed

After a long time

Yes , I was back . Though the calendar has flipped many a pages,
since the last time I was here , the fingers with same zeal have a mind
of their own, as I just lean in to my bed and see them doing the words.

Thoughts immense , lot to write , lot to say ,
but where to start the question ponders

Should I write for myself a fitness regime(which I require the most)
or should I write for me something else maybe something on relation ships

In the past few years that have gone by I have started reflecting a lot on the
words and the inspiration from the great people , perhaps I can have my say on them.

Or a page or two on programming which would be my intended career, in order to sustain
wishes of my stomach and the neighbours.



nOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...........
I dont want all this
Off late I know why I am here for
Not dreams neither any predictions
It all happens in front of me ...........
I know what is right and what is wrong

I know I am doing wrong
But then I blame my human tendency and go on doing my work
And when I fall
I know, I was right about the work

Not going forward with it
But after all I went ahead and did that
and when I failed I was wrong

I was stupid or more so ever persuasive
with my theory that in this world in order to succeed one has to be bad

NOT AT ALL TRUE...........


not at ALLLLLLLL ...

well the tide has come again

and I am going to sit for yet another college exam

this process so wonderfully repeats itself

would have been more smoother

if it just had a no marks tag to it.

i dont know

what to do

and where to go

Feeling I should turn into a Voyeur

But the feeling to do my parents name proud

keeps me in the battle field

surrounded by all foes

I DONT KNOW .....ONLY A Y

I WROTE THIS ......
JUST TO SYMBOLIZE THE END OF THE LOVE WHICH DID THIS TO ME

well its said , "whatever you do should have an end "
Yeah , it has to
You can have regrets , have smile , have cries
when you remember some one who was as close to as you
as yourself

And that somebody was you for me
and before I start writing a long mail
which will be the first (smiles) ..... and more soever(the last)
Because I dont want the answer for what you have done
and neither I want to tell you that you were wrong..........

But just take this the last time.......I know we were not the perfect when we fought and cried that night...........
I never wanted my love which my loved more then myself to end
All the things I did ........... Yes I know , I was not mature when I asked you to do things not done
The only fear I had , I never wanted any one else to do all the things that I used to do .........

And , why I am writing this mail....today .....anything special
No !
I just as usual ............had a fit
I recluse d with no one around I always spare a thought for you
After all you were my only ..................Today I remember I saw your eyes after many months , and just that glance made me to write this,
So that you can know ,
That its over ,
(which I never wanted ), but its true
If you have any mis concerns that I still want you back in my life
Its absolutely a plundering thought
I deny your presence not because of your deeds
But due to other committements which I made recently..........
Hope you also have the same...................

Don't know what to say now
don't know where to start
I don't know how to handle
a complicated heart
You tell me you are leaving
but I just have to say
before you throw it all away

You know ++++,the feeling of happiness is when you have your loved one around
You said you left me for my marks
My those marks were much better
I earned them , while loving some one each day
Caring like a baby..........
sitting with you as a friend
trying to catch your hand as a lover
trying to even have you in my dreams,
And I knew you loved me to
I just neba new why you feared it
love need some sacrifices
i had to make some,
you made many,
you needed to make just one more
and that was time...........if you just gave more time
instead of always asserting your family concerns
you were never wrong

No parents would deny their childs happinness
They just want to protect you
Because surely they knew
You could never choose the right man

Yes, @ nights when I am gloomy and isolate
was it not for me
would have **** fallen for any one
I knew for myself
I admit , I had some girls in my life before
and have even some know......I always wanted to tell that 2 u
But you always became angry

Aniways I wont assert my opinions on you ani more as I am not entitled to that to you know

Just wanted to wish you a Happy life ahead
do your best in the upcoming cat exam and keep me out of your thougts as you are doing know............