I DONT KNOW .....ONLY A Y

I WROTE THIS ......
JUST TO SYMBOLIZE THE END OF THE LOVE WHICH DID THIS TO ME

well its said , "whatever you do should have an end "
Yeah , it has to
You can have regrets , have smile , have cries
when you remember some one who was as close to as you
as yourself

And that somebody was you for me
and before I start writing a long mail
which will be the first (smiles) ..... and more soever(the last)
Because I dont want the answer for what you have done
and neither I want to tell you that you were wrong..........

But just take this the last time.......I know we were not the perfect when we fought and cried that night...........
I never wanted my love which my loved more then myself to end
All the things I did ........... Yes I know , I was not mature when I asked you to do things not done
The only fear I had , I never wanted any one else to do all the things that I used to do .........

And , why I am writing this mail....today .....anything special
No !
I just as usual ............had a fit
I recluse d with no one around I always spare a thought for you
After all you were my only ..................Today I remember I saw your eyes after many months , and just that glance made me to write this,
So that you can know ,
That its over ,
(which I never wanted ), but its true
If you have any mis concerns that I still want you back in my life
Its absolutely a plundering thought
I deny your presence not because of your deeds
But due to other committements which I made recently..........
Hope you also have the same...................

Don't know what to say now
don't know where to start
I don't know how to handle
a complicated heart
You tell me you are leaving
but I just have to say
before you throw it all away

You know ++++,the feeling of happiness is when you have your loved one around
You said you left me for my marks
My those marks were much better
I earned them , while loving some one each day
Caring like a baby..........
sitting with you as a friend
trying to catch your hand as a lover
trying to even have you in my dreams,
And I knew you loved me to
I just neba new why you feared it
love need some sacrifices
i had to make some,
you made many,
you needed to make just one more
and that was time...........if you just gave more time
instead of always asserting your family concerns
you were never wrong

No parents would deny their childs happinness
They just want to protect you
Because surely they knew
You could never choose the right man

Yes, @ nights when I am gloomy and isolate
was it not for me
would have **** fallen for any one
I knew for myself
I admit , I had some girls in my life before
and have even some know......I always wanted to tell that 2 u
But you always became angry

Aniways I wont assert my opinions on you ani more as I am not entitled to that to you know

Just wanted to wish you a Happy life ahead
do your best in the upcoming cat exam and keep me out of your thougts as you are doing know............